I am a ska lover!

2010-04-22T01:45:00.001+08:00

if only there is a word that can portray thousands of feeling.

2010-04-21T01:20:00.002+08:00

ill update a very fast one. all summarised.

on tuesday, i gave school a miss. penat nak mampus.

woke up at 5pm,faris called to say that its afiq bday & they are heading to town.

showered,got ready,met faris & qid at braddell.

then trained to somerset.met up with afiq & azri.

went to watch "rec 2".my first M18 movie in the cinema.

luckily lepas.70% of the movie,i was covering my eyes with my hands.

the last part,FUCKING BRUTAL.

after movie,walk to somewhere called cuscaden.like a pub.

they met the rest whom i dont know at all.

everybody there drank including me.

at about 1145pm, faris,qid,imnotsurewhatshername & me went home.

2010-04-09T20:03:00.006+08:00

i want this wrap on my right wrist.
i want this on my right leg.
colouring of my choice.

i want this on my right shoulder.

i want this with thorns bigger life.

know your rights.

left shoulder.

phoenix.

have always taken a liking for tattoos.

get me all of this for my birthday.

thank you.

2010-04-01T09:33:00.003+08:00

you're the direction i follow to get home
when i feel like i can't go on, you tell me to go
and it's like i can't feel a thing without you around
and dont mind me if i get weak in the knees
cause you have that effect on me, you do.

2010-03-29T09:32:00.000+08:00

you are the only exception.

2010-03-28T20:21:00.001+08:00

i just wish that, you & i weren't so busy.

2010-03-23T09:42:00.002+08:00

i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain. i love you ain.

i can continue doing this for 365 days. im not good at expressing feelings so this is it. &

I MISS YOU BBY.

2010-03-19T16:22:00.001+08:00

kill to satisfy

drink to de-stress

i live life , waiting for it to end.

2010-03-16T16:42:00.002+08:00

there is a friend that i miss so much.
in the past, we use to talk, laugh, go out
& possibly everything that friends could
ever do. but now when we unintentionally
bump into each other, there is this awkward
silence & then both of us walk away. i wanted
talk to you but you kept walking away so fast
that made me feel hopeless for me to even try.
i miss you, friend=(

2010-03-15T02:27:00.003+08:00

im a boy.
a mere kid living at the back end of the street.
im known as nothing in this world.
ive got no friends, no one
that could i could share my problems with.
only animals & birds are my friend.
one day, i came across a girl named, katy.
i approached her & introduce myself.
minutes later, we became friends.
it seems like we were friends from the past.
we had alot to talk about.
everythings seems to be going nice &
then six months later, she told me that she
is suffering from leukaemia & that she has only
a few months to live if she doesnt find a bone marrow
that matches with hers. i felt devastated.
she was the only person that i can pour my heart, thoughts,
feeling, sadness & happiness. i told her that im going
to donate mine to her. but sadly it doesnt match hers.
at her deathbed, i didnt talk to her. i kept staring into her eyes.
katy said " i never had a chance to say this to you & im going
to say it now. i love you."
tears start to roll down my eyes as her soul fades away.
i love you was the last thing that she said.

2010-03-13T18:01:00.004+08:00

i always get blame for everything.
im always insulted with stupid,weirdo,idiot,slow,random,asking-telling wrong things,loser,emo.
well WHATEVER to you people huh. i dont mind being call all this cause i am the one with the character. i walk alone thats my problem not you.

2010-03-05T02:47:00.001+08:00

love you. love me. love us.

2010-03-03T03:24:00.001+08:00

one love.

2010-02-23T02:28:00.002+08:00

the detail is striking
the room's cold & frightening
you'll kick & you'll scream
you'll try everything to survive
they told me
but i broke the mold somehow

2010-02-18T22:06:00.001+08:00

If I'm mean. I like him. If I'm nice. I like him. If I talk to him. I like him. The world is never satisfied is it? It's always accusations of being a flirt or liking someone, when you clearly don't.

2010-02-18T02:32:00.002+08:00

drown all of your fantasies.

silent angel crashes through sky.

having lost sight of the stars.

regail me with your fairy tales.

butchering this tragic soul,

without hope,

their frailty is broken

& now fades into the blue.

2010-02-15T20:01:00.000+08:00

A Furtive Monologue.

2010-02-14T18:17:00.002+08:00

im staying away from all sorts of ways to contact.

so you wont be seeing me online, texting, answering calls ~

its time i do some soul-searching on life.

missed

2010-02-12T21:45:00.003+08:00

i miss your smile.
i miss your stupidity.
i miss your clumsiness.
i miss your text messages.
i miss your laughter.
i miss your voice.
i miss your hugs.
i miss your scent.
i miss your everything(?)

i miss you.

nurain wirdawati binte azmi .

2010-02-09T01:39:00.002+08:00

no wonder we have famine.

we have wars & we have diseases.

we have disability both mental & physical.

we have cancer.

we have epidemics & calamities.

2010-02-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

hey there.
i was going through peoples blog when i found one site with a post that somehow i think i should feel offended or ignore cause i think its referring to someone/me maybe but god knows who. i think you need to grow up. its time you talk straight to the face if you got any misunderstanding because beating around the bush is bullshit. do you know that people will suffer depression if you tend to talk belit-belit?(whatever it is). cause what you said will make the opposite thinking to himself/herself what the fuck or who the fuck are you talking about. i know its your blog/tumblr/livejournal where you can do what you like but "be a man, do the right thing". haha, i got that from russell peters. okay, after reading what i wrote, i realised that im beating around the bush too but its to make that person feel how i felt. being indirect can make you go nuts.

the things you said,im rehearsing them.

just know i'll never tell.

i see, i feel,

i've become one with words not real to me.

so i'll stare in silence.

2010-02-08T01:06:00.003+08:00

ifeelverystupid.ifeelveryheartless.ifeelveryrestless.ifeellikeineedsomething.
thesepastfewdays,ikeepgettingtheseannoyingbrainknocksontheleftside.itfeelsveryshittypain.
iaskmyselfsometimeswhydoigetallthis.ifashotintheheadwouldendallthis,i'dbegrateful.
aboutthetrustthing,imsorry,ishouldhavetrustyou.imatfault.iknowithappenedbackthenbutimlettingitout
now.myphoneisbeingabitch.itsdyingonme.prepaidalsocondemnedbutdontworrybytonighti'lltopup.
imustbeasomebodytobetypingthisway.ifyouguysfindithardtoread,imsorry.dingdongkelalaping.
qwertyuiopiloveyounurainwirdawativerymuchmorethanmysmellybolstermyphonemycomputer&myselfasdfghjkl
zxcvbnmletmemakeituptoyousoonbabybythisweekendqwertyuiop.

2010-02-05T03:25:00.003+08:00

i dont know whats my motive in this post. brain is as blank as fuck.
ive got alot of things that i dont want to do now such as
-talking.
-sleeping.
-eating.
-go to school.
-tv.
-wake up in the morning.
-internet.
-saving up money.

i just want to let off steam now such as
-shopping.(the best of the best choice)
-sky diving.
-gig.
-drink(not the best option at all)

2010-02-02T19:01:00.003+08:00

im sorry too.

posted by : nurain wirdawati.

2010-02-01T02:20:00.002+08:00

im a creep.
im a weirdo.
what the the hell am i doing here?
i dont belong here.
i just wish to be alone.
far apart from reality.

happy birthday jeriah!

2010-01-26T00:24:00.003+08:00

to:Jeriah Bte Ismail.

Happy Birthday Mum!

i know that i broke your heart which is uncountable.

forgive me for that.

i cant promise that i wont break your heart again

but ill'try my best not to.

you've always been the one there for me at all times.

be it in any situation.

i dont mind being nagged at because i know you care.

i could never have a mum like any other.

youre the best.

thanks to you & dad , that i have such a wonderful name.

another thanks from me.

sorry that i didnt get you anything this year

but ill make it possible by early feb.

once again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2010-01-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

Agyness Deyn !

post by : nurain wirdawati =)

merciless people

2010-01-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

i may be a muslim but i have a liking for dogs. not lying.
these people in the video whom originated from china & south korea are
mainly chinese. im not talking bout all the chinese , only these heartless bunch
of people in the video. every living things have the right to live. im just ashamed
that such human-beings do exist. i dont understand why they kill to just satisfy themselves & better still, they never regret. fucking sadistic people.
in china, there is no law about animal cruelty. pity them, too bad they are born with no heart & feelings. now, i fucking hate china ! you heard that ? im gonna go on a fucking war with you people motherfucker !

2010-01-22T01:00:00.003+08:00

its been 3 weeks of school.

& im sick of it.

i hate the ridiculous long bus trips back & forth from toa payoh to simei.

in two years time, after i graduate, my butt will be similar to a baboon's.

red & spicy. Damn.

classmates turns out to be interesting,

except for 1 or 2 stuck-up people.

if i had a gun, i have shoot them in the head.

for now,

im just waiting for 2012.

not sure if its true though but im looking forward to it.

before i die, i want tattoos.

having tattoos doesnt mean it is bad.

its just a body art but i know it is not accepted in muslim religion.

if you people are reading this post, im sorry to say if it doesnt look very sincere.

im blogging with my eyes half open

but all that is said here are true.

they are what i feel & what i want.

lastly, I LOVE YOU NURAIN WIRDAWATI ! =)

2010-01-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

yesterday was christopher loh jia hui's bday.
we celebrated his bday at exactly 12 midnight.
chris,faris,hairi,iszwan,ajie,mussybart,lufee,rahman & me were there.
celebrated at a coffee shop which in some way , it was very cool.
ajie's dream came true except that , the Nasi Lemak was replaced with chicken wing with rice set.
& you know i know la brother.
well i didnt stay over cause i got class in the morning.
but apparently , i didnt go to school cause i got some shit going on in my body.
so yeahh , what the fuck . should have stayed on .
once again , happy bday chris!

2010-01-10T03:14:00.002+08:00

Walking the streets with my dark-wash slim fit jeans.

I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be.

Laughing on the park bench , thinking to myself

Hey , isnt this easy

2010-01-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2010-01-05T00:18:00.003+08:00

emotions are a bad thing.

well thats what i think.

because they run through your head & body

like some sort of a race.

a minute ago, you will feel very happy/excited

& a moment later , you get angry or sad.

i hate when that happens because by then,

your mind will start to wonder if its right or wrong,

good or bad.

& when that happens, hatred will start to grow on you.

it will reach your mind just like how

a devil's whisper can make you do anything.

my mind always stops here when it comes to this

because your mind is a strong soul.

its either you control them or they control you.

i tend to give up when the slightest hope are shattered.

well , do you?

2010-01-03T01:59:00.003+08:00

well , im three days late for posting a post . happy new year ! i had a great time at countdown but not too great cause someone went home early . overall it was good . new friends , new life new school . i have yet to make a resolution & i dont think i need a resolution , so yeah . no resolutions . people keep saying that 2009 was a "hellsyear" . i think so too .
lets list down the things i did from jan 09 to jan 10 if i can remember .

:i got into sec 4.
:i had alot of arguments among friends.
:i hate maths & physics class.
:i got into the first eleven soccer team.
:trained alot till i achieved the body that i wanted.
:teammates & me got first toa payoh secondary school into the next level for the first time.
:failed my common test badly.
:did alot of movie marathon online.
:head to town & then no sense of direction.
:walk at town alone like an idiot.
:waited long hours.
:met alot of new friends.
:birthday was awesome.
:i started to have feelings for someone.
:there was a time that i slept for 16 hours.
:fell in love with caramel frappe.
:social skills suck.
:got wasted alot.sorry,im stopping.
:N levels.
:holiday.
:ton sessions.
:N level results.
: sezairi won.
:got ITE simei.
:stupid school.why so far?
:countdown.
: i have yet to do that one thing that i had planned on 2009.
: =) / =(
:theres more but i cant remember.
okay i know my resolutions already . im going to the dentist by this year . 1 , 2 whoop whoop !

2009-12-24T22:21:00.002+08:00

sick as fuck . no appetite . headaches . cough . fever .

2009-12-23T15:09:00.003+08:00

i want lots of cash now.

people always say be content with what you have.

but do these people really mean it?

that one , i dont know.

these people say this because they have money.

try putting yourself in our place.

i bet you'll complain every single time.

either on your facebook status, friends or blogger just like what im doing now.

i really adore & hate those rich kids whom have such rich parents.

look at her smile . damn happy huh?

i bet mine's bigger if those cash were mine.

2009-12-20T09:30:00.003+08:00

disappointed in my result , myself & someone .

like really disappointed .

i wont say names .

i dont wish to talk about it cause people will start assuming .

it hurt alot thinking about it every single time .

huh you know that?

fuck my guts .

anyway,yesterday, was not amazing at all .

alot of thoughts had been going through my mind .

2009-12-18T00:42:00.002+08:00

a walk to remember & the notebook.

touching story.

embarrassed to say this but i cried watching this movie.

hahaha!

okay now,

fuck off.

2009-12-10T03:29:00.002+08:00

this is whack!

i had a boring day at home.

so this is what happens.

woke up at 1pm.

didnt take a shower,didnt brush my teeth.

& ate.

surf th net & somehow,someone uploaded this pic above on facebook, i guess.

laughed till lungs explode, throats burning & mouth bleeding.

& my day wasnt boring after all.

argh! fuck you !

2009-12-07T05:01:00.001+08:00

in fisheye lens,

i look as though i have a big head & a small body.
wasted night.
midnight break in.
fuckyeah.

2009-12-03T00:36:00.005+08:00

(hooligans)

the kids want a fight cause they believe in themselves.

they stand for who they are.

that's the importance of the cause of fighting.

in the end , who wins anyway?

its just about standing up for what you believe in.

the passion in your hearts.

2009-12-02T10:46:00.002+08:00

humans are really a pain in the ass.

eg. my tagboard has someone who pose as me.

recently,i said this=

naz:to someone who likes to interfere,would you mind fuucckkiinngg ooofff ! from peoples affair.type you own name.

& he replied this.using my name.wtf!

naz original:ya whatever.

humans are a bizarre species.

they got nothing better to do.
see the pic above.

thats your kind.

you belong in the back of the bus.

humans & their shit attitude.

2009-12-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

this is our city of the dead

another life holds its weary head

we hope,we try,we live,survive

counting days trying to get by

waiting for the calling

anticipation in the air

we hope & dream of difference

city sleeping,Unaware.

i dont know why people are still in the 2007-08-09 era . im not against you people but come on , youve got to move on . even older people are upgrading themselves just to keep up with us , teenagers . to someone = if you think by saying like " kau mana punya ? " makes you feel so proud then youre wrong my friend . if you think i felt scared by you , then youre wrong again . im not those kids where you bully till the kid grows up traumatised , just to entertain yourself or your (rank) 'whatever you people call it' rise . you people are already the talk of the town so dont try doing stuff people dont like cause it could only get worse . your get-up is already a sore-eye . i mean every people dress up differently or every group dress up differently but who cares for as long the right attitudes there . i dont really like to compare but YOU PEOPLE made me .

2009-11-26T09:43:00.002+08:00

holy motherfuckingly brutal psychotic badass bastard.
anyones up for a game of chess?

2009-11-24T10:16:00.001+08:00

i certainly need one now.

2009-11-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like talking nor eating.

2009-11-22T23:19:00.004+08:00

i dream of steel.

maroon & warm,your end.

you gasp for air.

ill see this through,

ill see through you,

your pale blue eyes.

id better ..

2009-11-11T03:45:00.002+08:00

look at my face.i wish i could give a hard blow to it.let it bleed,like i care.currently im hating my life more than anyone else.going through my head now is just giving up.hope is gone,actually its not gone but i could feel it fading away little by little.what was i thinking! ,& i must have been a stupid one to have even think of it.blogger,i appreciate that you have been my listening ear,my best friend & my everything.if only you were a real person,i would have kiss you already.

'drink the poison when you think its over,stabbing yourself when you think its too late'.

'i wasnt asking for the world'.

quoted.

2009-11-06T23:29:00.004+08:00

The movie centers on a young couple, Katie and Micah, who are haunted by a supernatural presence in their home.Micah, a day-trader, and Katie, a student who claims that a ghostly entity has haunted her since her youth, are a young couple "engaged to be engaged".During a visit to their house, Dr. Fredrichs, a self-professed psychic, assesses that they are being plagued by a demon which feeds off "negative energy" and is intent on haunting Katie no matter where she goes.Each night, Micah leaves the video camera in their bedroom to record whatever might be occurring while he and Katie sleep.

so basically , i spend my day today watching this film . woke up at 3pm . ate breakfast when its already past lunchtime . ohh yeah , & i havent brush my teeth when i ate "breakfast" . 5 - 7 pm , spend my time staring at th computer . watched 'PARANORMAL ACTIVITY' . i almost pee-ed in my pants watching this film . at about 7.30pm , bathed . went out to buy ciggs . reached home . had sudden craving for pizza so called delivery pizza . an hour later , pizza came , paid , ate like theres no tmr .

last two days , went for an interview at Wingtai Asia with zakie . i really hope i get th job cause if not ill be going out everyday & get nagged at when i reached home . after interview , headed to town . only th two of us . walk talk cock was what we did . slacked at OG's starbucks from 7 till 10 . in between , bibi joined us after worked . then home sweet home .

i miss my brother & my sleep .

2009-10-25T09:37:00.002+08:00

razmy & tasneem .
brother & his girlfriend .

Dumbo.

mimi!!

everybody calls him by that name .

i miss you alot la . haha .

random but still idk why . lol .

when i was younger , he used to call me dumbo cause i have big ears .

but now if you address me as that name . ill have a sparring session with you .

we'll see who wins .

haha ! of course you la .

now , its my younger brothers turn to be called dumbo .

haha ! padan muke kau ! biar kau rase !

brother , hurry up & tie th knot with kak tas .

i cant wait la . haha .

i heard kak tas went to london , dont know whether she have went

or still there or came back to s'pore already .

on your marriage , make sure theres nasi minyak , chocolate fondue & ice cream .

hahahaha ! macam aku plak yg bayar duit catering .

anyway ,

i so wanna cry .

i havent slept till now .

eyes are even worse than th vampires .

for those naruto lovers , be jealous .

my eyes look exactly like a sharingan .

okay la , goodbye la , nak tgk bleach since tk boleh tido la .

*_*

2009-10-19T02:03:00.004+08:00

hello readers ! im back . yeah back ! let me tell you people tht i only update when theres an activity or something thts happen to me . okay ? so rohaizan klau kau kene (zang) ngn aku nye msn pm , aku mintak ampun . yeah to the others too who might have fallen for my trap . its 2am sia . i want to sleep but my eyes are disobeying my order . bodoh . okay 2 days ago which was saturday , went to night safari . sumpah sia gerek . ill recommend you to go there . cause theres th halloween thingy going on . lots of people were there . at th entrance sumpah boleh heart attack . lots of fake ghost . but their costume looks real . macam2 ada .. got chinese ghost , caucasian ghost , malay ghost but not sure bout th indian ones . my cousins was like 'lelli ! go take photo with them laa ! ' & i was like 'no way kak jana ! .. nope ! ' . i swear i was like a chicken . niece & nephew was way more braver than me . there were like 3 to 7 years old . wth kan ?
so at about 7pm , we went in . we walked , talked , snacked till we reach th suspension bridge . tu tempt paling sial . thts why its called suspension bridge . just as we were aboutto enter . a witch came . cb btol . but its a fake laa . along th way , i saw this pochong , but it was th chinese version . as i walked beside it , it kept staring . suddenly when i was a few metres away from him , he hopped towards me . let me tell you this ! im th first teenager to run a 50m dash in th ZOO! haha . believed it . cousin lagi pandai . my uncle , hhahh , he seriously made me laugh whole day . he walked but didnt realise tht theres a mummy but its actually a statue , so he walked & knocked th statue then he screamed . he thought real one . dah macam tarzan . at 1030pm , i left . my mum & cousins all stayed to watch th show . it was FADHLI'S bday pit . cabbed to changi village . driver bodoh nk mampos . peh slow ! peh hor betol ! $23$ DOLLAR sia burn to th apek . nbcb . at there khalis & fadhil was waiting for me . lots of people came . i wanted to go home but since it was late & th lifts at my block creeps me out everytime it turns dark . so ape lagi . overnight/ton whatever you call it . talked , played soccer , talked , ate , called someone special , talked sampai battery hp pon flat . then i sat alone smoking , hairi , iszwan ajie came , then mus , fye , nerd & pai came . drg bbl sampai aku lost connection . ard 6 took bus 59 home . some stayed some went home . at home , shower selepas tu kan krg guess ape ? haha . i find my post today very long . gi mampos . you wanna read or not , its not my problem . & kak jana i want pics ! ! !

2009-09-30T00:16:00.001+08:00

i want to thank lenny for asking me to watch this video . hahahahhahahahahahaha .
if you want to have a good laugh . go watch this . ewahh ! ewahh ! hahah .

2009-09-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

this is touching . haha . random .

miss this people like fuck.

2009-09-15T01:22:00.002+08:00

hello readers.

i miss these people in the pics.

starring the 'BDK WAYANG' lol.

i miss those times alot like fuck.

laughter was one of them.
i know we are all busy with our N's & O's

& we dont have the time to go anywhere.

lets meet up again after exams.okay?

i really hope to go out with you crazy people again.

haha.

okay bye .

2009-09-13T01:03:00.002+08:00

hello people! todays plan was okay .
i started sleeping ard 7am cause i cant continue sleeping after sahur .
woke up at about 3pm .
zaki called .
got ready meaning bath , money-check , perfume & called hairi .
went to interchange & met zaki at stairs .
instead of taking MRT or BUSes , we took a cab to somerset . zaki insisted .
beengg!
after getting some stuffs from OG , we headed for levi's signature.
then met lufee faris chris yaqin oman at cineleisure .
had burger king for break fast . then iszwan came .
after consuming alot of food , it was time for ion orchard .
went to bershka & got myself a shirt . went to metalli & bought a necklace .
tired , ciggs also running low , so bought a pack .
lepak rabak then cabbed home.

im still not satisfied with ion orchard so ill be back . remember .

i shouldnt wait but im not confident. how?

2009-09-12T02:35:00.003+08:00

blogger seems to work today. thumbs up for you blogger!

well , my blog died for awhile & has revived.lol.

one week september hols doesnt look like a holiday cause we have N' level.

SS exam result is sure to flunk. i studied,i meant, th whole sec 4 studied for sri lanka & northern ireland topic but none came out.okay for that, i give another thumbs up!

wednesday,

headed to city hall to break fast with family. soon after, i dragged my dad to citylink to get a pair of shoe & a couple of shirts & t-shirts . fuuh! puas hati di golden chance oi ! then , cabbed to geylang to get baju kurung , th place tht i dread th most in singapore. there , i told my mum to just pick for me any baju kurung cos i hate choosing when theres alot of people & th temperature , mak oi ! peh panas.nk dekat boiling point.

friday,

cabbed to heeren with hairi hairan to get my shoe as ive made a reservation there.then met faris faras at his workplace.lepak lepak waiting for break fast.had mac for break fast & headed for ion orchard. i advised you, when you go there, you must have a thick wallet filled with money not some paper. went to uniqlo & got myself t-shirts . happy banget . went to top man & tried a jeans material jacket.ask opinions from faris & he gave me a thumbs up.ape lagi bsk shopping! haha . so i guess ill head down to ion orchard again tml . after tht, we got tired of window-shopping , so we went outside to smoke.lepak lepak then tired , cabbed home leaving hairi & th rest . fit called asking whether i want to slack . yaqin fit zan uddin haaziq kamal came & we slack .

kene screened . gantung .took pics & headed home ard 12+ . then ard 1am, lepak ngn hairi . talking cock & disturbing people is what we're good at . & im wearing green for this year's hari raya . lol .

bye .

2009-08-19T00:17:00.002+08:00

fri 14 aug ,

-school as usual.
-friday prayers.
-headed to yaqin's house.
-then stairs waiting for th rest.
-at first , chris thn faris thn fadhil & many more.
-took 31 to kallang .
-played at kallang cage.
-extremely fun.
-at 6,game ended.
-shower everything ready thn back to TPY.
-ate at F&S.
-lemon chicken was especially delicious aft a tiring game.
-lepak rabak till 11 thn home.

15 aug

-went off in th morning to hougang.
-had a street soccer tournament.
-we did our best by reaching semi but lost in th end.
-aft tournament , bused to potong pasir to jam.
-home sweet home.

16 aug ,

-HOME.

17 aug ,

-school. nothing more.

18 aug ,

-i started to have phobia of being in a lift with fadhil yaqin & kamal.
-three of them started jumping.
-lift stopped.
-so they called up th emergency number & we have to wait in th lift
till th mechanic guy comes & save our butts.
-now i know how prison cell feels like.
-th worst part was when i had no choice but to let it go.
-I FARTED.

tth point blogging this way is because im too lazy to elaborate.

2009-08-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

my mind is in a twirl right now.

i dont know what to do when the time comes.

so unprepared.

a glance & there it goes,

vanish,as if it was erase from my mind.

i dont want to have alot of

choices cause it takes a long time

to pick th right one.

2009-08-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE FCUK IS WRONG WITH YOU BLOGGER!
you stupid dump punk head cock..
of all times,when i had th mood to blog
you gave problems. bodoh macam kambing.

2009-08-09T00:38:00.002+08:00

today, woke up in th morning cause i was just in th mood to. soon after, yaqin came. get myself ready to go to school for dnt. thanks mom & dad for th present & kfc cause you know i don't like b'day cake tht much.after dnt ,went home to change then off to jam. as usual i'm always th one to reach last. halfway during jamming , ilyas bass got technical problem & we were playing to loud so th uncle chased us out plus he said tht we don't need to pay. i don't mind bout tht cause i took tht as a birthday present from th uncle cause it was a free 45 min jam. lol. as we were walking out, all of us felt unsatisfied so we called another jamming studio & thy said tht our slot would be 8-9 pm. it was arnd 4 when sulaiman booked th other jamming studio so we still have 4 hours till jamming starts. wasting time. all of us went separate ways planning to meet back at 8 pm. sulaiman went to ilyas crib, haiquel went to soccer at school, younos went home(buat taik mata) , yaqin fit & me went to my house cause i need to get money. trained to town area to get a pair of sneakers but thy said tht there were only size 10. gantung. as we were walking , we notice tht it was already 8:30pm! so we cabbed to th jamming studio. reached there mintak paisey & yadayadayada.. headed to mac once jamming ends then off home. thanks for th birthday wish everyone ! love you guys so much =)

should i?

i tried

2009-08-06T23:52:00.001+08:00

i searched for you!

every single nights
i had come
searching , waiting for blood.
body's numb.
the scent of pureblood is nearing

i smell fear deep inside
possible ways of escaping had been tried.
run all you want
cause no matter what,

i'll still haunt you down.

you changed me into a beast
your days are numbered
no point praying to the high priest
cause i'm gonna have a fucking feast.

tear your fucking guts out
screamed like a girl
nobodys coming
time is up
YOUR TIME IS UP!

i smell fear deep inside
possible ways of escaping had been jam up.
run all you want
cause no matter what,

i'll still haunt you down!

short-minded

2009-08-03T01:33:00.001+08:00

1 Aug 2009,saturday.

~Dnt class.
~at 2pm,headed to town area with yaqin zafir oman fitri fadhil.
~got myself a t-shirt.
~ate at bk.
~watch the ndp parade.
~headed to marina roof to slack.
~at 8pm,cabbed to tpy.
~slack again at roof.
~at 10pm, HOME.

2 Aug 2009, sunday.

~at 11,fadhil called to jam.
~went back to sleep.
~headed to ptg pasir at 330 to jam.
~soon after jam,headed to roof to study for tml test.

2009-08-01T02:04:00.002+08:00

when you're happy , they too feel happy
but when you're in deep shit ,
they cast you aside .
i felt it before .
but these people in the
picture above are different .
thanks for everything .

2009-07-25T22:44:00.001+08:00

hello readers! long time since this blog been updated. busy lately. ive been trying to catch up with th subjects cause prelims & Nlevels coming. i feel that im getting better now cause ive been passing SS test & others lately except for maths & physics. numbers is not what im good at,seriously. enough bout school stuffs. my birthday coming soon. happy .
now for the purpose of todays blog: ive got a crush . bye!

2009-07-06T00:36:00.002+08:00

4th of july ,
firstly , met up with yaqin fit ami fads at sky gard . thy were playing those stupid poker card game eversince school started & worse still , thy were using things thy have as their lifelines such as shirts , pants , bangles wallet . my plan was to get a temporary wallet at any nearby shop so aft thy have finish playing their card game , yaqin went off to meet chris at stairs while i make my way with the rest to bishan . otw there , bump into man zac gig . reached bishan , had a look at 77th street but there were only girls wallet . my other plan was also to watch transformer again since th first time i watch was moneywasted . trained to somerset meeting yaqin & chris , leaving th rest cause thy said thy want to play soccer. there was a gig at scape but lazy to go. bused to bugis to get my temporary wallet then bused again to clarke quay to have our dinner . aft dinner , lufee called , asked to meet at esplanade . performance at esplanade was satisfying although its free to watch . then came this friend of them called 'emma' which i would called her a weirdo . nonstop talk . there was this rapper who said a speech abt muslims & extremists which in a way was very impressive because he is a japanese . ard 1145 , trained home .

5th of july,
stayed home , eat tons of food , had a wonderful nap , play stupid games & here i am blogging.. bye !

2009-06-25T02:40:00.002+08:00

2012. im not sure bout whats gonna happen to us in 2012 but i swear im watching the movie. you guys should watch th trailer. fcuking intense. & not forgetting , transformers 2.this friday im gonna watch tht motherfcuking movie alright.ive been waiting for like months,i guess.

lately,ive been sleeping like really really late.and now im having a bad headache.i guess it was all from watching naruto till bout 6 in th morning.dark circles appearing round my eyes. okay, i really miss my friends but i just dont want to show th feelings cause ive fallen apart from them. ive just got to blame myself for being th stupid one. okay i think what you guys said bout me is true. ive been looking at you guys like strangers but deep down right in my heart,it pains me cause ive been with you guys like from primary school & suddenly all this happens . all i need is just respect.actually i didnt expect out of all people ,you guys whom i had been friends with for a long time would like stab me in th back. tht explains why ive been outcasting you people.

2009-06-20T20:27:00.005+08:00

for th first time, i didnt go out on a saturday. i was spending most of th time today watching NARUTO. i was supposed to go to sentosa with faris lufee yaqin cause thy said there is a beach party going on but since im broke & lazy, i didnt tag along. now im alone at home..hahahah! im free to do anything.mom & bro had gone to aunts house while dad is working.okay,you guys know what,ive not shower..haha ill go do what im suppose to do now & be back here by midnight if not when mom come homes & tengok rumah mcm kene rompak, confirm die pekik 'MUHAMMAD NAZRELLI!!!' & from there,non stop,24/7 ,nag nag nag till she herself gets tired of it.

2009-06-18T02:38:00.001+08:00

(sea of treachery lyrics)

You run in circles just to feel alive.

This endless cycle must be broken.

Define a role, place me in it.

As you reflect a dark world.

My life inside your distorted eyes.

Your baseless pride and such damning lies.

Differences you won't realize.

Differences you can't compromise.

This life will fade, don't you knowThere is no point in this sad charade, The cash parade that you march in?

You've sold your soul so go aheadAnd be on your way.

Bow to your gods-party sluts and heiress whores.

Your rules do not apply, For I am not just like you.

Party sluts and heiressWhores define your culture in which I want no part.

This is my life.

These are my dreams.

I will never let you define me.

ive done my part.

2009-06-16T00:36:00.008+08:00

hey people! ive not been blogging for quite some time.nothing much really happens this few days so i dont see th need to blog every single day.currently im always with yaqin & zaki cause thy make me feel welcome,we had fun every time we're together.as for th rest of thm,im trying to get away as far as possible from thm cause i dont feel th same whenever im with thm.it just doesnt feel right.also drifting apart from my bandmates cause we are not serious bout this band bullshit,sometimes either one would cancel our session including me & we still do not know what genre we are in now.im doing my part by changing & becoming a better bandmate so its your turn.come on guys,if we keep doing this,we will not go far & fadhil,can you please make up your mind?we've been doing this for six months already & im getting sick of it.& guys if theres anything tht ive done wrong pls say it to me,dont go round talking shit bout me cause it will only make me angry.th only bandmate tht ive seen trying hard enough to make this band stay th way it is,is younos.sulaiman,youre th band leader so act like one.just now you went jamming with zakir & gig.wtf right?!(no offends zac & gig)you said you wanna make th band perfect thn when we were all free just now,you dont want to have session.somehow i dont understand how your mind works.i know you guys had been wanting to jam but can you guys wait & think for a minute on what song we are bringing & we even do not know what genre we are on.we cant be sitting in th jamming room for 2 hours doing nothing right? im telling you guys tht its your actions tht are making me losing interest in this band so make a choice.ive let it all out.
kecohnye mak aku. happy sangat lah katekan haha!
last week, cousins wedding so basically i was spending most of my time with my cousins since ive not seen them for so long.both cousin's wedding was at the same time.kecohh giler..i miss th chocolate fondue but there was other food & desserts.every single thing had been tasted so i must say tht ive gain a wonderfully loads of weight.this is th only pic ive got.sedihh. waiting for my cousins to send me those pics so yeah once i get tht i will post it.tired lahh typing.will stop here.goodnight readers =)

to tht someone , pls take good care of yourself.

2009-06-06T02:44:00.005+08:00

hey! how are you guys?isnt it great tht its th june hols=)yippee!

anyway, i just got back from yishun .

congrats to my bro for obtaining a car license cause if

its wasnt for him i have slept over at my aunt's place.

at aunt's house was a chaos.

freaking loads of kids!

entertaining thm can make you really go berserk

but i dont mind since i love kids.

ameer bin zamzam

this guy is th newest addition to th ISMAIL'S family.

freakin cute isnt it?

i like it when he ties his hair up .

looks just like those ninjas in th animes.

bout th last post i think ive used to much vulgarities

but it was just to vent my frustrations

since blogger is th place where you could rant all you want.

already late .time to sleep cause i gotta go back to yishun in th morning again.

nights=)

2009-06-01T23:36:00.005+08:00

ehk pukimak anak sial ! kau tk berani bbl depan aku pe..perut kau mcm tong sampah bleh buat punching bag plak tu!kau fikir badan kau besar aku takot uh ngn kau nabei chibai! kau nk gadoh sini uh buto turun tpy blok 12 sial bile-bile aku tunggu kau nye,bbl mcm gini buat aku darah menyirap sak sampai dah kat top level. kau klau kau anak jantan thn say it in my face!buto sekali bbl belakang aku understand tau tapi dua kali tk leh tolerate sial.aku nye psl uh aku nk keluar ngn sape,kau fikir kau sape nk control aku.kau pon same jugak pe,kau keluar ngn budak-budak 'htaed' kau ade ajak aku huh?abeh ade hati kau label aku BUDAK WAYANG! sial peh gemuk badak hippo & anything thts enormous!& ape maksud kau BUDAK WAYANG?bapak kau ajar kau pe?ehk gemuk kau masih perangai boy uh label-label org,nk label org pon tgk diri kau dulu lah sundal.dgn muke kau yg mcm babi,mak kau suap kau ape uh?gajah pe ke pil gemuk? kau suke satu ppompuan dlm sekolah kan? aku make sure hidup kau tkkan tenteram lagi.kau nk main giler ngn aku kan..aku tk pernah tunjuk aku nye gile tau kat skola & once i do it, tht face will be stuck in your fucking mind where you will remember for th rest of your life. BIAR KAU RASE GEMUK!!!

2009-06-01T02:00:00.003+08:00

at first when i saw this vid i thought it was kinda dumb, but after looking at th fake lyrics it shows how hard it is to be a man with alot of responsibilities.

2009-05-30T23:30:00.003+08:00

Jai Ho! soo uncalled for.. not been updating for th past few days cause im currently busy with SHAMAN KING(anime).thanks to this anime ive not been eating,sleeping,going out,talking with friends eventhough im online & even shitting.
term 2 has finally ended hooray! good cause i need some break from school stuff but we still have remedials on th hols & dnt project to be done.
actually ive just gotten back from raffles with yaqin zaki.first,headed to arab street to celebrate Bandung Day.thn walk to fad media studio to have a look cause theres a gig.aft tht,bus to esplanade to watch Comic Strip perform thn walk again to uob to slack & wait for chris.eat again thn slack again at uob.reach home at abt 1130.yaqin remember,im gonna bust your ass big time when i meet you tml.ive just realised im using alot of THEN in this post. okay goodbye.gonna continue with shaman king..=)

2009-05-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

hello readers! im feeling bored now.i just wanna school to end cause im starting to hate school & those idiotic looking teachers.totally disappointed with my mid-year results cause everything seems to be out of plan.i dont have th confidence feeling now towards my N level examinations.i keep wondering what i would be in 10 years time if i continue my old habits.i guess ill just be rotting in th streets,eating thrash,no branded stuff no nothing.but now i think ill change for th better cause i feel tht im just wasting my parents money if i dont study hard.parents slog their guts out day & night just to give education to us but we took advantage of it.ashamed to even face my parents now but what to do,living in th same house so we see each other everyday.BAAAAHH!
holidays are coming in few days.cant wait for it cause this calls for SHOPPING! & not forgetting studying:( but still i dont have enough cash yet.i really envy those rich brats cause thy just have to signal their parents & there you go, lots of CASH CASH CASH!

didnt do much today.morning=MENDAKI CLASS.ard 7pm,went to marina square with yaqin to get myself a new slippers.we were like walking all over marina square to find th right one.if you wanna know,i am very fussy when it comes to buying stuffs so think twice if you wanna tag along.after buying it,went to meet zaki younos rafi lenny bb for awhile thn home sweet home.okay thats it for now.LATEERR dudes =)

2009-05-20T00:16:00.006+08:00

im not th type of guy tht usually cries like those mat jiwangs who play songs in th void deck,but this guy in th vid seriously made my tears fall.i know you readers are laughing at me now but who cares.who in th world said tht boys cannot cry.not referring to anyone but just letting something out of my head.this feeling is bugging me all th time.i guess you guys know tht im not th person tht expresses my feeling.everytime you see me,theres always a bright,smiling face but deep inside a volcano is erupting.i still cant find a reason to what im pissed about.somehow i feel like venting my anger on someone but it doesnt make things any better.if possible i want to migrate to somewhere faraway where i can lead a carefree life.for once i hate myself,look into th mirror & felt disgusted looking at my own face.i just wanna be by myself for now..takecare readers.

jangan terperanjat..

2009-05-18T22:49:00.005+08:00

okay,,now observe.
does it remind you of someone?
if not,thn good.
cause he reminds me of my nightmare.
lol.

2009-05-17T01:56:00.004+08:00

yesterday,boring + no mood at all.went to bugis thn dhoby thn bishan skate park.we were like living zombies roaming in th town.we had no sense of direction at all.lenny sungguh belo cause she said there is a bus to go to bishan but didnt realise tht th last bus was at 7pm.we waited for abt 15 min for th bus which also makes us belo.Today went to roof for session.Fitri told me something today.shocked abt it,funny too.

something is seriously wrong with me. help!

fuck you fags!

2009-05-13T23:46:00.006+08:00

FRIENDS.
there are good friends or bad friends.
they either stab your back or kill you straight away.
i find it funny though cause its all too sudden.
i just wanna say 'thanks' alot so-called 'friends'.
now i know what it feels like.
appreciate it 'friends'
so from now on see tht i dont entertain you fcuking fags,cunts,.
yeah! thts th word to describe you.
yeah thts all ..i dont believe in friends anymore.
lastly FCUK! to those ppl who thinks im tht sort of guy.

2009-05-10T00:07:00.003+08:00

actually i dont know what to blog about so i just put up a vid.enjoy it readers!
mom! happy mothers day!i love you.thanks for th care you shown me throughout these years.i know ive been a bloodsucking son but i hope you forgive me.

2009-05-07T02:24:00.009+08:00

Group Studys!!

2009-05-06T00:29:00.003+08:00

this part of my life is when boredom strikes.
but still i find them cute.

2009-05-05T00:07:00.002+08:00

“You ain't gonna miss your water until your well runs dry”

-Bob Marley
i believe we shouldnt take things for granted.

2009-05-04T01:37:00.004+08:00

a little too late to blog cause tml is exams .

but still i cant sleep so decided to blog.

just now or should i say yesterday we went studying at

rooftop kamal which i just name th place whatsosever.

most of my brains cells are dying because of th studys

thn we played catching just to relax our mind aft hours of revising.

theres a part where i regreted playing catching in th carpark at night

especially when you are th 'catcher' running alone to catch someone.

you wouldnt want to know what i saw.

so note to self : never play catching at night in th carpark or anywhere

lest you wanna see 'them'.
aft tht, we took pics using lenny's camera and headed home.

2009-04-29T22:28:00.006+08:00

hey guys! exams are coming & not a single thing has got in mind.
man ive got to focus and need little more time. its not just this, theres DNT
& GEOG! i fcukingly suck in those subjects. DNT especially,havent done
alot of things & will be meeting mdm Aini soon cos she wanna check our Dnt
folio. if only i got a remote control tht could rewind th time,then i could make up for th time wasted & not worry bout upcoming exams. all this shit
is making me sick & stress out. i promised my parents tht im not gonna let them down.
if i fail, i wonder what thy are gonna do to me.i can even imagine it now.probably it would be an hour of tongue-lashing or mayb even th whole day! okok enough bout exam stuff.

today in class,we had fun learning except for maths cos numbers make me wanna puke.
after tht we took pics & puff puff puff, study study study till my brains were almost melting. thts all for now readers (=

2009-04-24T23:07:00.003+08:00

I Can Tell - Saosin

im falling in love with this song even though ive just recently heard their song
and they are SAOSIN!

adoii

2009-04-18T23:37:00.005+08:00

adooi ! my fcuking balls are in pain thnks to mus!. i feel just like screaming so loud but what difference will it make. you can say tht it was damn happening inside th room till i cant get a breath. haha. at first th aircon was working but after 5 min it stop & i was sweating like a player whos been playing soccer match. anyway ragdoll epilogue & murdered for revenge was a blast. thy gain control of th stage but th other bands were good too. thy were unique,amazing & those guitarist are damn talented. aft gig, went to bugis street to meet man & th rest .eat at victory and ian wanted to shop so thy went while man fad ilyas & me lpk at roof near to ilyas house. otw there, kene screened. muke dah mangkok. lucky no ciggs were in my bag if not gantung diri kat rumah. i regreted once fine $200 & wouldnt want anymore. aft th police check,gossip2 at roof mcm mak nenek thn went home.nk tido laa oi.. tk tahu penat pee! haha bye . bored (=

alot of stuffs happening

2009-04-15T23:04:00.003+08:00

heyho! im back after not updating for a few days,i think. school was not as exciting as i thought it would be today. i feel so sick right now bcos my asthma is back. at first it was fitri now me. i cant even run short distance now wtf! and sports day is on friday BAAAH! how am i going to run. been sleeping lately these few days thanks to my bro new psp UMD game for his b'day present but instead of him who gets addicted i got. it was so fcuking addictive and it was a challenging game. gawd! now thanks to lack of sleep,i am feeling lethargic and restless. tomorrow will be going to stadium to get ready for sports day which is on friday.oi guess what?i am going to get ZERO for ss. i slept the whole period ss and i dreamt that i was chasing yaqin with a permanent marker.i still dont get it. haha. i know its stupid but quite funny too. i cant wait for this saturday's gig laa oi. deathcore siol!. confirmed happening giler cos it will be ragdoll epilogue and many more performing haha so theres gonna be alot of two steppings,breakdowns and shouting like 'its time for you to die' . gahh! hehe. okok lah enough of typing. im going off soon.Byebye!

2009-04-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

today felt weird.

usually i slack only at tpy

but had a change of scenery.

yishun is a quiet place but you can say tht mat kotai is all over the place

wth their 'floating caps' haah! what a name.

well just now yaqin plan to study for SS test but th plan of studying fail as only fadhil brought th book instead they went to play takraw with some guys.

lots of junk foods make me wanna stay at the toilet.

wont be eating it for now .

okay i dont know what to write abt anymore.

tired.

gonna sleep soon.

BYE READERS!!

today is shit day

2009-04-12T00:26:00.004+08:00

ive got a bad sore throat !

blogging just for th sake of it!

jamming sucks alot!

i guess you wouldnt even care!

yeah and thanks alot for th food sulaiman=)

2009-04-11T00:01:00.005+08:00

just got back from uob.first,accompany man to buy his bag at beach road and then we went to haji lane to eat at zamzam.yumm. then we walk all the way to uob which was so far away but luckily got alot of pit stops.hah. reach there slack till 10+. the wind there was refreshing.had alot of fun.lots of laughter.yeah and names not mention zaki zakir yaqin lufee amir fadhil.thanks for the good time just now.actually there was supposed to be having session but younos and haiquel had something on.i cant wait for tomorrow cos its jamming day and yeah but i got sore throat.haha soo tomorrow wont be that perfect.

this is different story. you know i hate liars so you dont have to make up a lame reason just soo you could go with them..if so you neednt lie cos you could just tell the truth. you think i was born yesterday haha not! i think you should go to some good liars and ask them on how to give good reasons.

you knew i hate liars!

Fuck Face

2009-04-07T21:23:00.004+08:00

hey peeps! im gonna tell you abt this person who keeps coming to me & show me his fuck face.
sometimes i have the feeling of thrashing him. his face just irritates me(kau tahu tak blehh jadi giler!). can you imagine you are eating & he comes and do stupid faces. arghh! if only school permits of having violence.haha. that would be so fun! .

tiring day

2009-04-05T00:23:00.004+08:00

today is Bandung Day.had bandung at bugis .went shopping at peninsula .had to travel to alot of places till my legs almost went jelly .reach tpy then had session .i think im gonna go crazy soon if this keeps going on every single week . HAPPY B'DAY ILYAS!! .

first blog

2009-03-31T23:48:00.004+08:00

hey people!this is my first time bloggin (rase kekok siket).i don't know why but suddenly i had the feeling to make a blog.haha.i guess its bcos i have alot to say about my daily life happenings and even myself.okay,today i did not attend school cos of lazyness(mcm tk tahu plak Muhd Nazrelli).hehe.woke up at 2pm,hang ard at home(mendak)went to slack with them.soo happy for azreen cos he got an engine bicycle for his birthday.took it for a ride,damn it was fast.went home and here i am bloggin in my life.ok thats all for today.will update soon!=)